salam =)
I cannot illustrate to you how much in awe i am currently with what the Almighty have given me.. despite taken back my right hand function due to the simple boiling hot water incident to my dominant hand and thus rendered me invalid for the day, i've gain so much more!!
Just gonna brief you up a bit regarding my injury: i'm not really sure what really preceded the incident, just next thing you know, i'm driving as fast as i can using my left hand to my own hospital casualty..(which also not really 100% in good shape since i burned my left thumb too). after a jab of Voltaren(NSAIDs) and then step up to pethidine(opiod), i finally can laugh it off.
When your're in pain and in deep need of help, the reality struck hard. i've noticing how much more a simple act of care and thoughtful gesture means. it literally can bring you down to your knees! yesterday, i've received yet another devastating news regarding one of my loved ones .. leaving me forever without ever give me time to say goodbye.. T_T . The pains doubled and it feels right now like my heart bleeds through the agony of it...
All in all, i'm still gonna say its a wonderful day. Despite losing one right hand (literally), i've gain extra 4 pairs of right arm from my family and such BIG BIG LOVE from my staff and friends at work..and i get extra time to pray and reflect hard on myself now.. a superb gift don't you think? ^_^
lastly, just a bit of a famous literature for us to ponder upon:
i asked God for strength
He gave me difficulties
to make me strong.
I asked for wisdomand He gave me problems to solve
I asked for prosperity
And God gave me my body and my brain with which to work..
I asked for courage
And God gave me dangers to overcome
i asked for love
and God gave me troubled people to help
i asked for favours
and He gave me oppurtunities
i received nothing i wanted but instead
i received everything i needed....
.."katakanlah: Tuhanku tidak akan mengindahkan kamu, andaikan tidak kerana ibadahmu. Tetapi, kamu sungguh telah mendustakan-Nya, kerana itu kelak azab PASTI akan menimpamu.." Al-Furqan: 77
23 November 2011
13 November 2011
moments of solitude
Alhamdulillah. Cukup satu bulan berkhidmat di Kuala Kubu Bharu. Lain cabarannya jadi district MO ni. Memang pengalaman bermakna yang tak boleh nak dilupakan. Di sinilah baru sedar di mana letak duduknya diri sendiri, baru tahu langit itu tinggi atau rendah, baru jelas sejauh mana tahap kesabaran menempuh dugaan dan baru terang bersuluh tahap kebergantungan kita dengan Yang Maha Kuasa. Insaf insaf. ^_^
Kalau oncall di hospital daerah ni, hanya ada anda seorang mengendalikan seluruh hospital, tanggungjawab mati hidupnya seorang pesakit itu andalah yang bertanggungjawab ke atasnya. Bayangkan pada suatu ketika yang sama, anda perlu melihat kes trauma di ED, ada pula patient collapse di medical ward, dan pada masa yang sama ada pula complicated labour in labour room and pregnant mother with pregnancy induced hypertension started fitting in antenatal ward.. she's going to be a full blown eclampsia!!.. FUHHH!!! terbelah empat badan dibuatnya..tak tahu nak selamatkan siapa dulu.. Hanya Allah jualah yang menjadi sandaran. Alhamdulillah, setakat ini, my oncall time although busy but still manageable. Havent kill anyone yet, hopefully never will be.
Memandangkan masih baru di sini, biasalah.. doktor baru.. kena bulilah dengan senior MO. MO in charge saya dah super senior.. UD54. berbelas tahun in service. Asyik kena lari sana lari sini gantikan orang. Walaupun kadang-kala geram juga dibuatnya.. saya selalu fikir.. whatever doesnt kill me, it will make me stronger!!
Seperti firman Allah dalam surah al-Imran ayat 145-146:
"..Barang siapa menghendaki pahala dunia, nescaya Kami berikan padanya pahala dunia itu, dan barang siapa yang menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan pula kepadanya pahala akhirat itu, dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang2 yang bersyukur.. Dan betapa banyak nabi yang berperang didampingi sejumlah besar dari pengikutnya yang bertakwa. Mereka tidak menjadi lemah kerana bencana yang menimpanya di jalan Allah, tidak patah semangat dan tidak pula menyerah kepada musuh. Dan Allah mencintai orang2 yang sabar.."
ps: gembiranya dapat minum teh panas sambil menikmati pemandangan indah bukit waktu petang selepas hujan waktu oncall semalam.. telefon tak berbunyi (tak ada kes urgent kena attend), nampak burung-burung berterbangan riang, makanan oncall pun sedap dan panas.. =) memang tak terkatalah nikmatnya.. (sebiji cam dalam iklan nescafe... hehe).. my moments of solitude ^-^ cool rite??
Kalau oncall di hospital daerah ni, hanya ada anda seorang mengendalikan seluruh hospital, tanggungjawab mati hidupnya seorang pesakit itu andalah yang bertanggungjawab ke atasnya. Bayangkan pada suatu ketika yang sama, anda perlu melihat kes trauma di ED, ada pula patient collapse di medical ward, dan pada masa yang sama ada pula complicated labour in labour room and pregnant mother with pregnancy induced hypertension started fitting in antenatal ward.. she's going to be a full blown eclampsia!!.. FUHHH!!! terbelah empat badan dibuatnya..tak tahu nak selamatkan siapa dulu.. Hanya Allah jualah yang menjadi sandaran. Alhamdulillah, setakat ini, my oncall time although busy but still manageable. Havent kill anyone yet, hopefully never will be.
Memandangkan masih baru di sini, biasalah.. doktor baru.. kena bulilah dengan senior MO. MO in charge saya dah super senior.. UD54. berbelas tahun in service. Asyik kena lari sana lari sini gantikan orang. Walaupun kadang-kala geram juga dibuatnya.. saya selalu fikir.. whatever doesnt kill me, it will make me stronger!!
Seperti firman Allah dalam surah al-Imran ayat 145-146:
"..Barang siapa menghendaki pahala dunia, nescaya Kami berikan padanya pahala dunia itu, dan barang siapa yang menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan pula kepadanya pahala akhirat itu, dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang2 yang bersyukur.. Dan betapa banyak nabi yang berperang didampingi sejumlah besar dari pengikutnya yang bertakwa. Mereka tidak menjadi lemah kerana bencana yang menimpanya di jalan Allah, tidak patah semangat dan tidak pula menyerah kepada musuh. Dan Allah mencintai orang2 yang sabar.."
ps: gembiranya dapat minum teh panas sambil menikmati pemandangan indah bukit waktu petang selepas hujan waktu oncall semalam
18 October 2011
di mana DIA di hatiku
Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Agung dan Maha Besar. Hanya Dia sahaja yang layak disembah. Bumi KKB menjadi titik tolak tsabatnya perjuangan sekeping hati yang gersang, kerdil lagi hina.
Cukup-cukuplah pengalaman 'menjadi anak kambing sesat' di bumi warisan dahulu. Di sana saya mengenal erti mujahadah dalam payah.
Umur saya cuma sehari di tanah bukit empangan ini. Risau dan gusar menanti apakah reaksi teman-teman sekerja di hospital nanti (officially mula bekerja Rabu ini). Bulat tekad menanam azam: mahu celik hati, tenang jiwa dan cergas minda!
Maka bermulalah agenda awal pagi saya: bangkit dengan senyuman, fikirkan yang indah-indah, luahkan kata-kata yang baik dan tunjukkan inilah apa yang Allah tuntut dari hamba-hamba-Nya. INILAH ISLAM. kan cantik begitu?? Mudahnya kerana di sini, laungan azan begitu dekat seolah-olah di tepi telinga, dan walaupun pekannya kecil tapi banyak masjid dan surau-suraunya yang saya kira tak sampai 300meter jarak dari antaranya. Subhanallah.
Dikuatkan lagi dengan firman Allah dalam surah al-Imran ayat 123-124:
" Dan sungguh, ALlah telah menolongmu dalam Perang Badar, padahal kamu dalam keadaan lemah... Apakah tidak cukup bagimu bahawa Allah membantu kamu dengan tiga ribu malaikat yang diturunkan dari langit??"
MasyaAllah.. apalah sangat perjalanan hidup saya selaku district MO di sini jika nak dibandingkan dengan perjuangan para sahabat dalam Perang Badar yang amat menggetarkan jiwa nurani itu??? T_T
Langkah ini mulanya dari dalam diri.
Rumah ini bukan sekadar rumah.
Ia masjid an-Nur. Cahaya di atas cahaya.
Biar mantap langkah berjalan dalam lembayung rahmat Allah.
Ranapkan musuh batinmu satu demi satu.
Carilah kekuatan di sebalik sesuatu.. insyaAllah akan kita temui kasih sayang Allah pada hamba-hambaNya.
selamat bermujahadah!!!
Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Agung dan Maha Besar. Hanya Dia sahaja yang layak disembah. Bumi KKB menjadi titik tolak tsabatnya perjuangan sekeping hati yang gersang, kerdil lagi hina.
Cukup-cukuplah pengalaman 'menjadi anak kambing sesat' di bumi warisan dahulu. Di sana saya mengenal erti mujahadah dalam payah.
Umur saya cuma sehari di tanah bukit empangan ini. Risau dan gusar menanti apakah reaksi teman-teman sekerja di hospital nanti (officially mula bekerja Rabu ini). Bulat tekad menanam azam: mahu celik hati, tenang jiwa dan cergas minda!
Maka bermulalah agenda awal pagi saya: bangkit dengan senyuman, fikirkan yang indah-indah, luahkan kata-kata yang baik dan tunjukkan inilah apa yang Allah tuntut dari hamba-hamba-Nya. INILAH ISLAM. kan cantik begitu?? Mudahnya kerana di sini, laungan azan begitu dekat seolah-olah di tepi telinga, dan walaupun pekannya kecil tapi banyak masjid dan surau-suraunya yang saya kira tak sampai 300meter jarak dari antaranya. Subhanallah.
Dikuatkan lagi dengan firman Allah dalam surah al-Imran ayat 123-124:
" Dan sungguh, ALlah telah menolongmu dalam Perang Badar, padahal kamu dalam keadaan lemah... Apakah tidak cukup bagimu bahawa Allah membantu kamu dengan tiga ribu malaikat yang diturunkan dari langit??"
MasyaAllah.. apalah sangat perjalanan hidup saya selaku district MO di sini jika nak dibandingkan dengan perjuangan para sahabat dalam Perang Badar yang amat menggetarkan jiwa nurani itu??? T_T
Langkah ini mulanya dari dalam diri.
Rumah ini bukan sekadar rumah.
Ia masjid an-Nur. Cahaya di atas cahaya.
Biar mantap langkah berjalan dalam lembayung rahmat Allah.
Ranapkan musuh batinmu satu demi satu.
Carilah kekuatan di sebalik sesuatu.. insyaAllah akan kita temui kasih sayang Allah pada hamba-hambaNya.
selamat bermujahadah!!!
16 October 2011
pebble down my road
Salam. Time sure flies fast. I've completed my 2 years of bittersweet housemanship in Taiping's Hospital and enjoyed every seconds being an A&E's MO. The coolest experience ever --> i'm head over heels with Emergency Department =)
Starting of tomorrow, i'm heading to KUALA KUBU BHARU to be the next district MO in line, which as thrill as i can be, i'm fully prepared for the worst insyaAllah. For a 'freshie' who's gonna work with 4 or 5 senior MO there, i'm certain the workload will be chuck down onto me. All in all, i'm confidence and positive that He has something good in store for me there.
Bila difikir-fikirkan, urusan pertukaran saya ke Selangor ni tak sampai sebulan pun. Allah tolong bukakan jalan untuk saya:
1)proses pertukaran saya + nombor pendaftaran penuh siap tak sampai sebulan
2)dilembutkan hati seorang hamba untuk menyewakan rumah kepada saya dalam sekelip mata perkenalan: sebuah rumah yang siap segala kelengkapan, cat rumah pun ditukarkan khas untuk saya dan jiran-jiran pun bukan calang-calang orangnya (tok imam kampung dan cikgu-cikgu yang setia mendidik.. ^_^)
3)ramai pula staf/kawan yang punya kenalan atau keluarga di KKB: masing-masing menghadiahkan saya kasih dan sayang yang hanya Allah yang mampu membalasnya..
Bukankah Allah s.w.t telah menjanjikan pada para hamba-Nya yang Dia tidak akan memberikan kita sesuatu yang tidak mampu kita hadapi. Apa yang Dia berikan itulah yang terbaik buat kita.
Memanglah suatu kapal yang dibina itu akan kekal selamat jika dibiar di pelabuhan. Tapi, jangan pula kita lupa yang kapal itu dicipta untuk melayari lautan luas yang ganas lagi dalam, bukan sekadar penghias berlabuh di pinggiran....
Doakan yang terbaik buat saya di sini. . <3 <3 <3
Starting of tomorrow, i'm heading to KUALA KUBU BHARU to be the next district MO in line, which as thrill as i can be, i'm fully prepared for the worst insyaAllah. For a 'freshie' who's gonna work with 4 or 5 senior MO there, i'm certain the workload will be chuck down onto me. All in all, i'm confidence and positive that He has something good in store for me there.
Bila difikir-fikirkan, urusan pertukaran saya ke Selangor ni tak sampai sebulan pun. Allah tolong bukakan jalan untuk saya:
1)proses pertukaran saya + nombor pendaftaran penuh siap tak sampai sebulan
2)dilembutkan hati seorang hamba untuk menyewakan rumah kepada saya dalam sekelip mata perkenalan: sebuah rumah yang siap segala kelengkapan, cat rumah pun ditukarkan khas untuk saya dan jiran-jiran pun bukan calang-calang orangnya (tok imam kampung dan cikgu-cikgu yang setia mendidik.. ^_^)
3)ramai pula staf/kawan yang punya kenalan atau keluarga di KKB: masing-masing menghadiahkan saya kasih dan sayang yang hanya Allah yang mampu membalasnya..
Bukankah Allah s.w.t telah menjanjikan pada para hamba-Nya yang Dia tidak akan memberikan kita sesuatu yang tidak mampu kita hadapi. Apa yang Dia berikan itulah yang terbaik buat kita.
Memanglah suatu kapal yang dibina itu akan kekal selamat jika dibiar di pelabuhan. Tapi, jangan pula kita lupa yang kapal itu dicipta untuk melayari lautan luas yang ganas lagi dalam, bukan sekadar penghias berlabuh di pinggiran....
Doakan yang terbaik buat saya di sini. . <3 <3 <3
01 August 2011
stories of hope vs tragedy
~~~writing as the HO incharge of RED ZONE night shift 24/07/11 10pm till 8am 25/7/11 ~~~
12 MIDNIGHT @ 25/07/11:
The night was dark. we're anxious beyond words. The night is far too calm. Like the calm of a sea before the brink of a storm. Cases keep on coming 1 by 1, still manageable but somehow i did not feel at ease.. i wonder.. what's in store for us tonight??
12.30 Midnight:
we received a call. Our ambulance services is fairly in need. Large scale MVA in Bukit Merah Taiping (lorry vs bus fully loaded with 44 people). Siren blazing repeatedly echoing through the night. A few minutes later, our paramedic confirmed the death of 2 person on the spot thereby indicating this is a high speed injury a.k.a the night is about to get busy. Like a lion prancing on a defenceless mice, a tragedy has struck upon us. Only one thing in my mind: be prepared mentally and emotionally. More difficult and challenging cases are coming our way.
1.00 am:
we received our first case.
RED CASE ABOVE ALL> one of the yet so many gruesome facts fate thrown our way.
20 months old malay boy with severe head injury.
within minutes of his arrival, after a s eries of CPR and valiantly trying our best to save him, unfortunately, his time is up.
All of us just froze there.. thinking where are his parents right now? are they safe?? what will happen to them once they learned their boy has died before them??
even in the aftermath of his death, we have no time to mourn him.
another case coming in whom we deemed him UNKNOWN BED 1.
presentation:
malay/male/20+
drowsy with GCS 13/15 on arrival.
sustained crush injury of both leg (nearly unsalvageable) with multiple long bone fracture and traumatic arthrotomy which i myself lose count of. Despite our vigorous resuscitation, he keeps on bleeding like hell. His right leg later on amputated. Regrettably, he died just few hours prior to these entry. May GOD bless his soul.
UNKNOWN BED 2
presentation:
female/malay/ 20+
drowsy with GCS 14/15 on arrival
sustaine d multiple closed long bone fracture with her left eye nearly severed out of her eye socket. Facial wound oozing with blood.
we intubated her.
currently critical in our ICU.
Later on we learned that she is the mother to the boy who died initially. T_T
( her husband is one of those who died on the spot)
within space of 5 minutes, cases keep pouring in .
(MVA PLUS NON TRAUMA CASES)
YELLOW DISASTER DRILL ALERTED> all our staff being call back to work.
MO from different department also came for help.
Taiping Hospital is currently at war.
its almost one to one manshow.
for me and my friends who stuck with red cases, its all or nothing.
you either manage to revive patient to life or you're left with cold black plastic body bag to wrapped onto.
6.50 am:
in the end, the actual statistic left me out cold.
Total 40 MVA casualties.
with 6 death
3 critical
>20 warded.
in the face of death, truly- we learn more about life.
somehow, we survived the night; with deep wound engraved to our heart and soul.
help us keep the seed of hope alive for them.
PLEASE: drive safe. TREASURE EACH MOMENTS OF LIFE>
dont let their tragedy becomes yours.
ps: sorry for the long entry.
semoga ramadhan kali ini menjadi titik tolak baru dalam hidup kita, berusaha mencari cinta Allah.
12 MIDNIGHT @ 25/07/11:
The night was dark. we're anxious beyond words. The night is far too calm. Like the calm of a sea before the brink of a storm. Cases keep on coming 1 by 1, still manageable but somehow i did not feel at ease.. i wonder.. what's in store for us tonight??
12.30 Midnight:
we received a call. Our ambulance services is fairly in need. Large scale MVA in Bukit Merah Taiping (lorry vs bus fully loaded with 44 people). Siren blazing repeatedly echoing through the night. A few minutes later, our paramedic confirmed the death of 2 person on the spot thereby indicating this is a high speed injury a.k.a the night is about to get busy. Like a lion prancing on a defenceless mice, a tragedy has struck upon us. Only one thing in my mind: be prepared mentally and emotionally. More difficult and challenging cases are coming our way.
1.00 am:
we received our first case.
RED CASE ABOVE ALL> one of the yet so many gruesome facts fate thrown our way.
20 months old malay boy with severe head injury.
within minutes of his arrival, after a s eries of CPR and valiantly trying our best to save him, unfortunately, his time is up.
All of us just froze there.. thinking where are his parents right now? are they safe?? what will happen to them once they learned their boy has died before them??
even in the aftermath of his death, we have no time to mourn him.
another case coming in whom we deemed him UNKNOWN BED 1.
presentation:
malay/male/20+
drowsy with GCS 13/15 on arrival.
sustained crush injury of both leg (nearly unsalvageable) with multiple long bone fracture and traumatic arthrotomy which i myself lose count of. Despite our vigorous resuscitation, he keeps on bleeding like hell. His right leg later on amputated. Regrettably, he died just few hours prior to these entry. May GOD bless his soul.
UNKNOWN BED 2
presentation:
female/malay/ 20+
drowsy with GCS 14/15 on arrival
sustaine d multiple closed long bone fracture with her left eye nearly severed out of her eye socket. Facial wound oozing with blood.
we intubated her.
currently critical in our ICU.
Later on we learned that she is the mother to the boy who died initially. T_T
( her husband is one of those who died on the spot)
within space of 5 minutes, cases keep pouring in .
(MVA PLUS NON TRAUMA CASES)
YELLOW DISASTER DRILL ALERTED> all our staff being call back to work.
MO from different department also came for help.
Taiping Hospital is currently at war.
its almost one to one manshow.
for me and my friends who stuck with red cases, its all or nothing.
you either manage to revive patient to life or you're left with cold black plastic body bag to wrapped onto.
6.50 am:
in the end, the actual statistic left me out cold.
Total 40 MVA casualties.
with 6 death
3 critical
>20 warded.
in the face of death, truly- we learn more about life.
somehow, we survived the night; with deep wound engraved to our heart and soul.
help us keep the seed of hope alive for them.
PLEASE: drive safe. TREASURE EACH MOMENTS OF LIFE>
dont let their tragedy becomes yours.
ps: sorry for the long entry.
semoga ramadhan kali ini menjadi titik tolak baru dalam hidup kita, berusaha mencari cinta Allah.
04 July 2011
pemilik cintaku
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Salam sayang untuk semua.
Afwan dah lama menyepi.
Seketika tenggelam.
Sudah puas tersedak air barulah berkesedaran nak naik ke permukaan T_T.
mujur masih mampu dikembalikan...
Saya sekarang di Emergency Department.. my last posting. Mujur perjalanan HO saya smooth and steady although i can't say the say for my 'other journey'. Sedar tak sedar dah 1 bulan saya di sini.. lagi 3 bulan insyaAllah selamatlah saya bergelar MO: new title which comes with greater responsibility and headache .. hehe. Tak pasti ke mana hala tuju saya selepas ini..
Sekarang kan musim orang bertemu jodoh dan menambah ahli keluarga.. bahagianya =)
dari kejauhan.. saya pun turut tumpang gembira.
semoga jadi isteri/ ibu mithali.
semoga dapat menambah lebih ramai pejuang agama Allah yang tsabat di jalan-Nya.
ps: ada sepasang adik2 kesayangan saya bakal jadi mempelai bulan ni ~~~~ tak sangka telahan saya tentang mereka ni akhirnya menjadi kenyataan.. tak sabarnye saya nak bertandang ke bumi keramat ~~~ hehe =P
sejenak saya terfikir (dan saya harap anda pun ada fikirkannya juga..)
siapalah agak-agaknya yang menjadi pemilik cinta kita..? PEMILIK CINTA KITA SETELAH ALLAH DAN RASULNYA???
untuk saya, nak meraih cinta Allah dan Rasul-Nya itu pun masih terkapai-kapai lagi usahanya, masih terumbang-ambing sasarannya, masih hitam legam taruhan jiwa yang menjadi korbanan..
manalah berani mahu dibicarakan pula soal cintanya hamba...
masih jauh lagi perjalanan ini.
bagi yang sudah ketemu kemudi, belayarlah terus ke destinasi penuh barakah yang telah Allah janjikan untuk hamba-hambaNya yang soleh dan muslih.
akhir kata: SELAMAT MENIKMATI CINTA HALALMU!!!
jika Allah mencintai seorang hamba, maka Dia akan memasukkan kecintaan ini ke dalam hati para malaikat.. Jika Allah membenci seorang hamba, maka Dia akan memasukkan kebencian ini ke dalam hati para malaikat, kemudian memasukkannya pula ke dalam hati manusia..
Salam sayang untuk semua.
Afwan dah lama menyepi.
Seketika tenggelam.
Sudah puas tersedak air barulah berkesedaran nak naik ke permukaan T_T.
mujur masih mampu dikembalikan...
Saya sekarang di Emergency Department.. my last posting. Mujur perjalanan HO saya smooth and steady although i can't say the say for my 'other journey'. Sedar tak sedar dah 1 bulan saya di sini.. lagi 3 bulan insyaAllah selamatlah saya bergelar MO: new title which comes with greater responsibility and headache .. hehe. Tak pasti ke mana hala tuju saya selepas ini..
Sekarang kan musim orang bertemu jodoh dan menambah ahli keluarga.. bahagianya =)
dari kejauhan.. saya pun turut tumpang gembira.
semoga jadi isteri/ ibu mithali.
semoga dapat menambah lebih ramai pejuang agama Allah yang tsabat di jalan-Nya.
ps: ada sepasang adik2 kesayangan saya bakal jadi mempelai bulan ni ~~~~ tak sangka telahan saya tentang mereka ni akhirnya menjadi kenyataan.. tak sabarnye saya nak bertandang ke bumi keramat ~~~ hehe =P
sejenak saya terfikir (dan saya harap anda pun ada fikirkannya juga..)
siapalah agak-agaknya yang menjadi pemilik cinta kita..? PEMILIK CINTA KITA SETELAH ALLAH DAN RASULNYA???
untuk saya, nak meraih cinta Allah dan Rasul-Nya itu pun masih terkapai-kapai lagi usahanya, masih terumbang-ambing sasarannya, masih hitam legam taruhan jiwa yang menjadi korbanan..
manalah berani mahu dibicarakan pula soal cintanya hamba...
masih jauh lagi perjalanan ini.
bagi yang sudah ketemu kemudi, belayarlah terus ke destinasi penuh barakah yang telah Allah janjikan untuk hamba-hambaNya yang soleh dan muslih.
akhir kata: SELAMAT MENIKMATI CINTA HALALMU!!!
jika Allah mencintai seorang hamba, maka Dia akan memasukkan kecintaan ini ke dalam hati para malaikat.. Jika Allah membenci seorang hamba, maka Dia akan memasukkan kebencian ini ke dalam hati para malaikat, kemudian memasukkannya pula ke dalam hati manusia..
28 January 2011
lesson relearn
Akhirnya saya dah menjejakkan kaki ke department yang ke-5: O&G. Day 12 of life here. Just like a newborn: still have so much thing to learn and skills to be sharpen along the way. Life is busy as always.
Terfikir juga, apa sebenarnya yang saya dah belajar dalam department2 yang sebelum ini?? kalau nak disimpulkan kepada satu ayat...
1. ortho - a place where you'll learn the survival of the fittest. The going gets tough, but the tough keeps going...
2. surgical - a place where you'll learn to project and marketing yourself, in another word: making you become more efficient and at the same time numb with death.
3. paediatrics - a place where you'll learn that every single thing you do have a significant impact to the world around you. There is nothing else more lovelier than the juiciest truth. Every simple detail is make into account. AND LOVE GOES A VERY LONG WAY...
4. medical - its all about teamwork and sharing the burden (and happiness also). This is the place where you'll need to stay ahead of yourself. Life is afterall more fruitful when everyone lends a hand. Or a shoulder.
5. O&G - its about protecting the future. You will grow up ONLY if you can overcome all the obstacle of life. Take it one step of a time. EVEN A BABY NEEDS TO GO THROUGH THE HARDSHIP OF MOULDING HIMSElF INTO A VERY TIGHT BIRTH CANAL FOR HIM TO BE BORN ALIVE! (after all, we're calling it labour right?? )
No pain No Gain .
~~~~sentiasa cuba mengingatkan diri untuk sentiasa bersyukur apabila dapat menyaksikan keajaiban kelahiran di depan mata saban hari... T_T syahdu... ~~~~~
Terfikir juga, apa sebenarnya yang saya dah belajar dalam department2 yang sebelum ini?? kalau nak disimpulkan kepada satu ayat...
1. ortho - a place where you'll learn the survival of the fittest. The going gets tough, but the tough keeps going...
2. surgical - a place where you'll learn to project and marketing yourself, in another word: making you become more efficient and at the same time numb with death.
3. paediatrics - a place where you'll learn that every single thing you do have a significant impact to the world around you. There is nothing else more lovelier than the juiciest truth. Every simple detail is make into account. AND LOVE GOES A VERY LONG WAY...
4. medical - its all about teamwork and sharing the burden (and happiness also). This is the place where you'll need to stay ahead of yourself. Life is afterall more fruitful when everyone lends a hand. Or a shoulder.
5. O&G - its about protecting the future. You will grow up ONLY if you can overcome all the obstacle of life. Take it one step of a time. EVEN A BABY NEEDS TO GO THROUGH THE HARDSHIP OF MOULDING HIMSElF INTO A VERY TIGHT BIRTH CANAL FOR HIM TO BE BORN ALIVE! (after all, we're calling it labour right?? )
No pain No Gain .
~~~~sentiasa cuba mengingatkan diri untuk sentiasa bersyukur apabila dapat menyaksikan keajaiban kelahiran di depan mata saban hari... T_T syahdu... ~~~~~
01 January 2011
defeated
selling stories that are overrated
in this world so complicated
felt so right, you tried to make it wrong
why can't we all just get along
from the start something wasn't right
i used to cry myself to sleep at night
told myself stand up, be strong
this kind of phase doesn't last for long
and every time you try to knock me down
gonna pick my back off the grounds
the battle never ends
you can tear me apart,
you can rip me to pieces
try breaking me down but i'll never be beaten
you can say that you won but i'll never believe it
cause i can't be defeated
made a mistake
swore i'll never repeat it
lost my heart for a second but it never stopped beating
i smile through the tears
so the way that i see it
i can't be defeated
there are times that i couldn't take it
never feel so violated
at the risk of sounding so cliche
i just gotta call a spade a spade
hurts me right to the core
i can't take this any more
getting tired of the same old song
final chorus now i'm moving on
things ain't fair in love and war
never been the kind to be ignored
tried to push me to the edge
nothing is impossible
nothing is unreachable
if you only believe
you get what you need
so keep on holding on
ps:
i'm so sorry for the short listed number of entries in year 2010
looks like i'm beaten for a while
just gonna keeps on fighting
and tried to make the best out of it
a big thanks to all of whom help me make it through
and helping me to remember what is it that's important in life
I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER
......
insyaAllah, in two weeks time I'll be changing department from medical to O&G (my fifth posting). wish me lucks!
in this world so complicated
felt so right, you tried to make it wrong
why can't we all just get along
from the start something wasn't right
i used to cry myself to sleep at night
told myself stand up, be strong
this kind of phase doesn't last for long
and every time you try to knock me down
gonna pick my back off the grounds
the battle never ends
you can tear me apart,
you can rip me to pieces
try breaking me down but i'll never be beaten
you can say that you won but i'll never believe it
cause i can't be defeated
made a mistake
swore i'll never repeat it
lost my heart for a second but it never stopped beating
i smile through the tears
so the way that i see it
i can't be defeated
there are times that i couldn't take it
never feel so violated
at the risk of sounding so cliche
i just gotta call a spade a spade
hurts me right to the core
i can't take this any more
getting tired of the same old song
final chorus now i'm moving on
things ain't fair in love and war
never been the kind to be ignored
tried to push me to the edge
nothing is impossible
nothing is unreachable
if you only believe
you get what you need
so keep on holding on
ps:
i'm so sorry for the short listed number of entries in year 2010
looks like i'm beaten for a while
just gonna keeps on fighting
and tried to make the best out of it
a big thanks to all of whom help me make it through
and helping me to remember what is it that's important in life
I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER
......
insyaAllah, in two weeks time I'll be changing department from medical to O&G (my fifth posting). wish me lucks!
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