sit down my dear

Early in the morning, in the midst of referring a patient in the labour room, i've heard one of my senior staff voicing out her discontentment against some ill-treatment she received from her own superior: she voices it out in such contempt that my first automatic responts at that time was: "please sit down my dear.. or better yet.. go and lie down in the PE ROOM.." She smiled immediately..all further animosity died down almost as it never there in the first place. My thought at the most pressing time was to kill the ill feeling aura brought in by anger and resentment.

Little did i know, i'm gonna need the same advice myself later in the evening. A colleague of mine, whom i'll never thought of him as a tactless person, have proved to me again and again how despicable a human can be. Smiling contently in front of me behaving like i'm the next-best-girl-friend-in-the-whole-wide-world while in truth, he actually working diligently i might say, in tarnishing my reputation to those whom matters. T_T . Do not underestimate the true force of office politic!! 

MY HEART DOES BLEED.
BUT IT WILL HEAL.
I WILL NOT YIELD.
I REFUSE TO BE IN THE SAME 'LEAGUE' AS THEY ARE. 
LET THEM SEE HOW EXCEPTIONAL I AM.

Ya Allah, hindarkanlah aku daripada melakukan perkara yang zalim... T_T.
"Dan orang yang sabar kerana mencari keredaan Tuhan mereka, dan mendirikan sembahyang, serta menafkahkan dari apa yang kami berikan mereka, secara bersembunyi atau terang-terangan; dan mereka menolak kejahatan dengan cara yang baik; mereka itulah disediakan bagi mereka balasan yang baik.." Surah Ar-Raad 13:23

johan

a name so special for a boy who made me feel so grateful i have the chance to meet him.
a boy who's real name goes as Jonathan.
a chinese 11 years old patient of mine: who suffered from ADHD and BA. Two condition who never rendered him bound to the bed, at least not in spirit although occasionally he's too tired to move about.
a boy who are quick to speak his mind, difficult on the ears.. but a truth nevertheless.
a buddhist boy who by God's willing, recite multiple verses of Quran more fluent than the rest of us. He even knows the meaning!! Double shame on me.. Truly, education and environment is what makes us thick.
He's not that rich, but his heart is of a mountain of gold. Always giving gift and warm wishes to those whom he met. i've received choki choki from him. sweet right??
There was an episode where he goes missing. We're at loss where to find him. Last resort: policemen were called to help us find him before anything bad really happens to him. And guess where we find him??? In the mosque near the hospital.. Subhanallah. Indeed, Allah is worthy of all praise. The lesson i learnt from him alone is enough to bring halt to the knees.

As Allah said in  verse 7, surah al-Ibrahim: "If you give thanks, i will give you more. but if you are thankless, verily, My punishment is indeed severe.." T_T.

May He bless Johan. Hope to see him again as a muslim later on. InsyaAllah.