good things of being an invalid

salam =)
I cannot illustrate to you how much in awe i am currently with what the Almighty have given me.. despite taken back my right hand function due to the simple boiling hot water incident to my dominant hand and thus rendered me invalid for the day, i've gain so much more!!

Just gonna brief you up a bit regarding my injury: i'm not really sure what really preceded the incident, just next thing you know, i'm driving as fast as i can using my left hand to my own hospital casualty..(which also not really 100% in good shape since i burned my left thumb too). after a jab of Voltaren(NSAIDs) and then step up to pethidine(opiod), i finally can laugh it off.

When your're in pain and in deep need of help, the reality struck hard. i've noticing how much more a simple act of care and thoughtful gesture means. it literally can bring you down to your knees! yesterday, i've received yet another devastating news regarding one of my loved ones .. leaving me forever without ever give me time to say goodbye.. T_T . The pains doubled and it feels right now like my heart bleeds through the agony of it...

All in all, i'm still gonna say its a wonderful day. Despite losing one right hand (literally), i've gain extra 4 pairs of right arm from my family and such BIG BIG LOVE from my staff and friends at work..and i get extra time to pray and reflect hard on myself now.. a superb gift don't you think? ^_^

lastly, just a bit of a famous literature for us to ponder upon:

i asked God for strength
He gave me difficulties
to make me strong.
I asked for wisdomand He gave me problems to solve
I asked for prosperity
And God gave me my body and my brain with which to work..
I asked for courage
And God gave me dangers to overcome
i asked for love
and God gave me troubled people to help
i asked for favours
and He gave me oppurtunities
i received nothing i wanted but instead
i received everything i needed....

moments of solitude

Alhamdulillah. Cukup satu bulan berkhidmat di Kuala Kubu Bharu. Lain cabarannya jadi district MO ni. Memang pengalaman bermakna yang tak boleh nak dilupakan. Di sinilah baru sedar di mana letak duduknya diri sendiri, baru tahu langit itu tinggi atau rendah, baru jelas sejauh mana tahap kesabaran menempuh dugaan dan baru terang bersuluh tahap kebergantungan kita dengan Yang Maha Kuasa. Insaf insaf. ^_^

Kalau oncall di hospital daerah ni, hanya ada anda seorang mengendalikan seluruh hospital, tanggungjawab mati hidupnya seorang pesakit itu andalah yang bertanggungjawab ke atasnya. Bayangkan pada suatu ketika yang sama, anda perlu melihat kes trauma di ED, ada pula patient collapse di medical ward, dan pada masa yang sama ada pula complicated labour in labour room and pregnant mother with pregnancy induced hypertension started fitting in antenatal ward.. she's going to be a full blown eclampsia!!.. FUHHH!!! terbelah empat badan dibuatnya..tak tahu nak selamatkan siapa dulu.. Hanya Allah jualah yang menjadi sandaran. Alhamdulillah, setakat ini, my oncall time although busy but still manageable. Havent kill anyone yet, hopefully never will be.

Memandangkan masih baru di sini, biasalah.. doktor baru.. kena bulilah dengan senior MO. MO in charge saya dah super senior.. UD54. berbelas tahun in service. Asyik kena lari sana lari sini gantikan orang. Walaupun kadang-kala geram juga dibuatnya.. saya selalu fikir.. whatever doesnt kill me, it will make me stronger!!
Seperti firman Allah dalam surah al-Imran ayat 145-146:

"..Barang siapa menghendaki pahala dunia, nescaya Kami berikan padanya pahala dunia itu, dan barang siapa yang menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan pula kepadanya pahala akhirat itu, dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang2 yang bersyukur.. Dan betapa banyak nabi yang berperang didampingi sejumlah besar dari pengikutnya yang bertakwa. Mereka tidak menjadi lemah kerana bencana yang menimpanya di jalan Allah, tidak patah semangat dan tidak pula menyerah kepada musuh. Dan Allah mencintai orang2 yang sabar.."

ps: gembiranya dapat minum teh panas sambil menikmati pemandangan indah bukit waktu petang selepas hujan waktu oncall semalam .. telefon tak berbunyi (tak ada kes urgent kena attend), nampak burung-burung berterbangan riang, makanan oncall pun sedap dan panas.. =) memang tak terkatalah nikmatnya.. (sebiji cam dalam iklan nescafe... hehe).. my moments of solitude ^-^ cool rite??